tell me where to start?
I feel so sad and disappointed right now and I don't even know why. i don't have the right to feel like this. I know he's not good for me but I feel like I'm sadistic and masochistic because I would choose him over any other guy. this thing is toxic for me and now I noticed that he's with another woman. I don't have the words to describe how I feel. I wish I could trully move on and stop feeling like this. I know I'm just being stupid but I can;t help it. I need to do something about it and get out of this bad mood I'm struggling with. I know that the ability to do it lays in me and I just need to do something about it in order to find it. but honestly I don't know where to start