Refllecting on 2017
It's that time of year again where I start getting all reflective thinking back on the year gone past. Usually I do this post just before Christmas, but its been a little busy here recently and this is the first I have had time to sit and think for weeks.
2017 has been a great year actually. I'm still happy at my job, although I went through a spell earlier in the year where I was ready for walking out if I'm honest. That's the modern NHS for you, staff morale is at an all time low, mostly because of staffing issues - just yesterday we had to give two members of staff to a neighbouring ward, leaving us really short staffed in the process. Once I accepted that this is just the way things are I became a lot happier.
I make a huge difference in people's lives and for that I am eternally grateful. It's not like you see on tv, I'm not rushing about doing CPR on every second patient, thankfully. Its about the little things, its about being the first person to explain to a patient what is actually going on, its about going into that room to give someone the worst news they will ever hear, its about holding hands, explaining procedures, dishing out pain killers or just lending an ear to someone. Emergency medicine is tough, really really tough, but I wouldn't change it for the world.
I've really settled into my job properly this year, having been there just about a year and a half now. I am no longer the new girl, there are three nurses newer than me and bound to be more soon I would think as the place is almost certainly going to be reshuffled due to one of the other units having too many newly qualified nurses. I lost the term newly qualified this year and just became a nurse too, its like a crutch that term 'oh I don't know, I'm newly qualified' it simply doesn't wash anymore with two years under my belt. I've done some extra training and recently took on my first extended practice role.
I've taken students for a shift and tried to show them why I love what I do so much. a part of me feels sorry for our students as I know they don't get the same time to spend with the trained staff as they would in other wards but when I think back to my own training in receiving I remember how lucky I was to get that experience. How I got to see and do procedures that my student colleagues hadn't even read about yet, I try to convey that to our students. yes its busy, but the experience you get here is probably the best experience you will get.
My business is doing well, I'm not about to quit my job but its bringing in enough to allow us some extras we wouldn't otherwise have. I have also met some amazing people through my business and I honestly really enjoy it. I have particularly enjoyed making up Christmas gift sets its nice to help people with their Christmas gifts and it gives me a chance to get creative putting products together.
We also bought our first flat. it's quite an amazing thing actually, I went from never really being interested in owning a property to being obsessed with the idea rather quickly once I could actually afford it. I came into a small amount of money and was able to use that for a deposit. I still had to take the legal fees out of my credit card and extend my overdraft but we are here and that's whats important. We have a few things to do in the flat, putting a shower in over the bath being the first priority, but we will get there and with the money we are saving paying a mortgage instead of rent we should be able to afford it.
The bunnies are still the bunnies, they seem quite at home in the new flat. I think they kinda love it here. they love hopping around in the big living room, in fact its pretty hard to get them back into their house area when you want them in! We got them a huge new carrier so they can stay at their own vets, the ones we had were too small really, but seen as we were only round the corner from the vets it didn't matter too much but I'm not putting them in those tiny things for half an hour trip each way! Other than that not much has changed on the bunny front.
What's in store for 2018? Well I have no idea! Lots of things I would think, my NMC revalidation is due this year so I have lots of paperwork to do in order to legally be allowed to keep my job - all in my own time I might add. I hope to grow my business a bit more but the focus will likely be on the house for the next few months as there are a good few things to do. I will probably do a post on my 2018 goals once I have had a chance to think a bit more about it - I would love to hear yours!