Chester Bennington found dead at 41
Linkin Park frontman Chester Bennington was found dead yesterday at just 41 years old. Reports say he hung himself in his home, leaving behind his wife and six children as well as a generation of people like me that were inspired by his music.
I am honestly not sure I can convey how important Linkin Park were to me when I was a teenager. I was very depressed back then, didn't have a great life. My home life was awful, school was worse, my health was a mess and I didn't see the point in anything. What was the point in working hard at school when chances were I would never go any further than that? How could I afford to go to university? Would I even be well enough to go? I just generally hated life really, apart from my small group of friends.
My two best friends were two boys who lived nearby. Both of them were into metal music, one was a proper goth. It was one thing we definitely did not have in common. That was until Kenny begged me to listen to 'one step closer' which was Linkin Park's first release. Oh how it described my thoughts perfectly I really did feel like I was 'one step closer to the edge, and about to break' other songs such as 'runaway' fit perfectly with my life. I wished so badly that I could 'run away and never say goodbye' although of course I knew I couldn't.
It felt amazing to know that someone understood how I was feeling, maybe even felt the same way. I became more and more into metal and rap music, music that spoke to me in a way no one ever could. I would never have opened up to that world if it wasn't for Chester.
Something about his voice, the way he sang you could just feel how he felt and it was exactly how I felt. I was fortunate enough to see the band live a number of years ago, definitely the best concert I have ever been to.
The saddest part is that the man who fronted the band that basically saved my life all those years ago couldn't cope with the depression himself. He had spoken openly about his depression and issues with drugs and alcohol for years - writing openly about his issues in songs he preformed.
I have never been upset about a celebrity death, but then I have never felt like I truly knew a celebrity before now. I hope you are at peace now Chester because you sure helped me find mine.