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I made it to day 7 off Ativan ... Symptoms became unbearable.

My 7th day off of Ativan was the worst.

My blood pressure went up. My stomach started cramping, I was nauseated. I took half a teaspoon of baking soda with half a glass of cold tap water. I laid down on the bed and my symptoms got even worse. Was it the spicy chicken wings? Was it the potato salad or the RC cola mixed with vanilla ice cream float?

Or was it Lorazepam withdrawal? This happened the last time I reached the 7th day being off Ativan.

I felt like maybe I needed a second dose of soda water. I did so. I was laying down in bed in agony with cramps in my gut like IBS on steroids, and missed the first 2 hours of the Superbowl. My wife told me to take an Ativan. I did. I took a .5mg Ativan and lay back down and within under 20 minutes most of the symptoms subsided.

I was angry at myself for giving in to the addiction to the benzodiazepam drug. I was relieved that the horrible IBS symptoms had subsided. I took a warm bath and returned to the living room with my wife and watched a few minutes of the game then decided to chill out to 'Jack in the Beanstalk' an old Abbot and Costello movie. My wife then asked me, "Anthony, I know you have had a bad experience this evening while withdrawing off the Ativan but you know you can't just quit cold turkey. Try taking one every other day for a few months and see if you can taper off more slowly, meantime would you like a small cup of cottage cheese?"

I said yes to the cottage cheese.

This morning I reached for my daily medications. Lithium? not today. Amlodipine? I have to take this. Lorazepam aka Ativan? not today.

So I had fried eggs and organic wheat toast bread and a cold glass of freshly made Lipton iced tea.

So far my tummy troubles are over with. So far symptoms of Benzodiazapine withdrawals are not effecting me but it's still early.

I made it a week off Ativan. Yea boy! Now I am back at square one. I have failed to get off this medication over 10 times. Each time I reach a threshold my body suffers horrible gastrointestinal cramping and nausea and pounding in the chest. Serious signs of dangerous withdrawal symptoms of this particular drug.


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MegL wrote on February 8, 2016, 2:53 PM

I understand IBS is a very annoying condition at all times and can be very painful. Plain food, like blended carrots and roast chicken can help. I have heard that probiotic yogurt can help too.

lookatdesktop wrote on February 8, 2016, 3:08 PM

Thank you for the information. I will try probiotic yoghurt

MegL wrote on February 8, 2016, 3:15 PM

Try this site if you want to help IBS http://www.breakingtheviciouscycle.info/

wolfgirl569 wrote on February 9, 2016, 11:23 PM

That is a good idea going every other day. Or just keep going as long as you can and take it when needed. But dont beat yourself up over taking one. Maybe the stretches of not taking them will get longer each time

lookatdesktop wrote on February 9, 2016, 11:38 PM

It has to. Taking Ativan takes your memory away. I don't like the fact that since I have taken this medication since 1995, I have short term memory loss and the moment I stop taking it to some degree my memory improves. Can you imagine not remembering to take your medicine or what you had for lunch 2 days earlier? Most take memory for granted but I realize this is not a good thing to lose especially when taking it prescribed by a doctor who insists it is good for me.

wolfgirl569 wrote on February 10, 2016, 11:55 PM

I have enough trouble with my memory as it is. Dont need help losing it. Wishing you luck getting off it

lookatdesktop wrote on February 11, 2016, 9:32 AM

Thank you for the kind words.