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Glad I didn't succeed

I know that usually failure is not and option and rarely is it a good thing. But it was on this day, 27 years ago(I was 16), that I attempted suicide while going through some deep depression. I won't go into the details of what happened but just to say that I thought that it was my only option. Luckily, I didn't succeed with the attempt but depression is something that I still deal with to this very day. If anyone out there on Persona Paper is contemplating doing anything along those lines, please don't do it !!! Talk to a friend or family member, get help, and try to beat it. Depression is a real issue and with professional help, it can be dealt with properly and beaten. No, I won't say that I am depression-free but what I will say is that if I had been able to succeed in my attempt years ago, I would have missed a lot of great times and memories that I have had since.

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MegL wrote on October 20, 2015, 2:06 PM

I am glad that you have been able to enjoy good times and happiness in your extra time here. It's good to know that it is possible.

Dawnwriter wrote on October 20, 2015, 11:13 PM

I hope your words will inspire others to seek help for their depression rather than do anything drastic or irreversible. I wish you best of health and I hope you are able to beat this. Writing is very therapeutic and it really helps to write stuff that make you depressed

Paulie wrote on October 21, 2015, 1:55 AM

I am also very happy that you didn't succeed. Are you taking medication for depression now?

dcnj123 wrote on October 21, 2015, 5:00 PM

Paulie, I took them for a while years ago but I just didn't feel like myself as they made me feel drowsy so I stopped. I also learned ways to self help myself in dealing with depression. I do a lot more exercising and things along those lines to help get my mind off of things that normally would depress me. I also try to avoid negative people. No, it's not a perfect formula but as long as I feel confident that I can beat depression without meds, I will...

dcnj123 wrote on October 21, 2015, 5:07 PM

Yes, it's possible...but not always easy but I have learned that regardless of the meds or help that one gets, the best thing that they can do to beat depression is really to avoid negative people. All the help in the world won't help unless your surroundings improve.

Paulie wrote on October 21, 2015, 11:51 PM

I agree with you that not taking medicine to beat depression is the best way to go.

Feisty56 wrote on October 25, 2015, 9:34 PM

What an awful time that must have been, but I'm happy you didn't succeed and since then have gained insights into yourself and your depression.