Whiskey Tango Foxtrot?
Today, you will see one of those rare rants from me. Oh, I am quite capable of writing them often, but choose to look beyond them, or find the good in situations, so I can impart some sort of buddha-esque words of wisdom.
I do not want for people to see the ugly, human side of me that is critical, bitchy, rude, or any other adjective that can be held against me. Part of that is because on the occasion that I do, all the good I have ever done in my life seems to get thrown out the window and I am criticized for being negative. That is when I become intolerant of others. The reality, I get butt-hurt, and feel like I cannot win. (Cue the family songs.)
W hiskey T ango F oxtrot???
My rant? This site, that I have loved so much this year, is dragging butt.
Whether commenting, liking, loading pages to read, and (I imagine) posting this when I hit submit. I watch the spinning circle, while "the wheels on the bus go 'round and 'round" plays incessantly in my brain.
I also have not seen the site administrators around in forever, and it makes me scared that the relationships I have built here will go by the way side once again. Of course, I have not yet archived and saved all I have written, because of the difficulty of getting through nearly 500 posts to do so. That is not anyone else's problem, but my own. However, I have sent a contact request in with questions, which have never been answered.
That brings me to my fears and worry and the lies that the fear is telling me. The question that runs through my brain: When will I be paid? I worked hard to reach my goal, and I would like to know that it will not take long. It has only been three days since I hit the submit button, but my brain is on overdrive this morning.
So, today I am showing my arse. I am complaining. I am ranting. It does not make me overall negative. It does not mean that I am whatever label people put on any of us, when we are frustrated. This is not a pattern of behavior or a way of thinking, in my case.
However, if you do not like that I am human and expect perfection, then kiss what I am showing.
Now, back to sunshine and lollipops...
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