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Traumatizing Nightmare

Early this morning (Technically since I'm writing this at 12:00am it would be yesterday morning now) I had a dream involving my grandfather who passed away in 2007. I wasn't at the funeral as I wasn't told of his passing until a few years later.

This dream actually had me waking up in tears. It's not the first time he's made an appearance in my dreams but this one was somewhat traumatizing for me. Instead of the usual ones I get where he shows up and my brain goes 'Wait, you're dead' (Which I absolutely hate) And then he vanishes, this one was much worse.

In this one, my grandfather was outside cleaning snow and I called out to him. He responded by saying 'What is it sweetie?' and I went up to him. As soon as I got in front of him, he collapsed on top of me and died.

My husband told me later on when he questioned me that I cried out in my sleep saying 'No. Why did you have to go like this?' Before waking up in tears.

I was always close to my grandfather. We were separated a few years before he died but our bond never broke. The last time I ever talked to him was when he called me to wish me a happy birthday. At least I can take comfort in knowing that although I miss him and never really got closure, the last thing i ever said to him was that I loved him.

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Paulie wrote on June 29, 2015, 1:48 AM

You probably dream a lot about your grandfather because you were very close to him. Sorry to hear about your traumatizing dream. Luckily, I haven't had one in a very long time.

HappyLady wrote on June 29, 2015, 1:54 AM

It sounds like you somehow need closure as the separation was probably traumatic. I don't know what your beliefs are, but I would get some inner healing prayer from a Christian ministry if that were me.

AliCanary wrote on June 29, 2015, 1:33 PM

Oh, honey. I feel so bad for you! That sounds awful. I hope you can somehow find a way to get some peace from it--maybe talk with your family members who were there, or just reminiscing about happier times might help.

LeaPea2417 wrote on June 29, 2015, 4:04 PM

I am sorry you are going through this. It is good, though, that you had a good relationship with your grand father when he was alive, because some people have bad relationships with certain family members.

MelissaE wrote on June 29, 2015, 9:55 PM

Our dreams mean many different things. They are influenced by diet and sleep patterns.