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What does it feel like to feel Normal?

I've been taking Lamictal for about 2 months now, right now on a steady dosage of 100mg. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to be feeling. I told my doctor I was feeling more apathetic lately, but he wants to see how I feel after a month of just 100 mg. It has been helping me stay more stable with my moods, but I don't like feeling super blunted with my emotions either. I'm hoping that we can find a good combination soon. I don't know what it feels like to feel normal. I've been taking Xanax more often than usual the past few weeks, because some nights the stress doesn't let me go to sleep.

I'm becoming more anxious about the moving out situation. I need to have a place by August, but of course that means I have to try to secure a place by June at the latest. Why does Texas have to charge expensive prices for just submitting the application?! It's ridiculous. $120 I might not get back. Not sure what to do. I'm trying not to think too much about it today.

Anyways, I'm wondering if we up the dosage of Lamictal will I start to feel better? I'm really not sure how I'm supposed to feel. I've been dealing with depression/bipolar for several years now. I've honestly forgotten what it's like to feel more carefree, less anxious and paranoid...

#depression


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MelissaE wrote on May 25, 2015, 8:54 PM

I have been anxious and nervous my whole life. I don't know what it means to be normal. I take eighty mgs of Prozac per day.

MegL wrote on May 26, 2015, 2:50 AM

There are some foods that can help make people's emotions happier. Of course we can call it comfort eating but some foods, like chocolate, do genuinely appear to make a difference. Problem for me is I shouldn't be eating those but the best form is the very dark chocolate, which is quite bitter but has the best effect.