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Have You Checked Your Sugar?

Have you checked your sugar? Those words were spoken to me every single time I showed emotion by crying. You see, I am an insulin dependent diabetic since I was thirteen years old.
Being raised in a Roman Catholic home within a large Spanish family, we were taught to hold our emotions in, to show our strength in adversity.
With that said, I had a hard time fitting into their strict rules. I cry. I cry happy tears, I cry sad tears, I cry alone, I tear up when I see someone else crying sometimes. I cry when angry even.
I use to get very upset by my family asking if I checked my sugar because I showed actual emotion, If I was seen with tears in my eyes, it must be my sugar was high, it was beyond my parents realm of understanding who I was as a person I believe. Here's the kicker.
This morning I woke up and realized April is here, my husband died in April of last year, I felt the tears running down my face, and I instantly thought to check to see if my sugar was high.


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FourWalls wrote on March 30, 2015, 2:40 PM

I have the opposite problem, I'm hypoglycemic (low blood sugar), and when my blood sugar gets low (such as when I don't eat on my regular schedule) I am an emotional train wreck ready to jump the tracks and fall into the gorge. I would think the same issues would affect those who have high blood sugar, too, especially if the insulin makes the blood sugar fall too rapidly.

(Disclaimer: I'm not a doctor and I don't play one on TV. emoticon :winking: )

Hollyhocks100 wrote on March 30, 2015, 3:03 PM

My goodness it must have been so hard for you growing up with so little understanding. I am so very sorry for the loss of your husband. I live in Spain, I moved out here with mine 13 years ago, but unfortunately he died just a few weeks short of our 2nd anniversary of moving here. You are still in the very early stages of your grief so it´s understandable that this month should have you crying. Much as we try to kid ourselves that special days like birthdays and anniversaries are just the same as any other, they are not and never will be again, though it does get easier to get through them. I´m sending you my shoulder to cry on because I know how awful you must be feeling, and a great big hug too.

JustSaying wrote on March 30, 2015, 5:07 PM

Hi Abby!
Yes, for the most part it is true, low blood sugar feels way way worse than high blood sugars though, I feel that through my own experiences. both can for sure make you irritable and weepy, high sugars make me tired also, sleepy, or grouchy even. Low sugars leave me shaky, weepy, weak, labored breathing. I

JustSaying wrote on March 30, 2015, 5:12 PM

Thank you so much Hollyhocks! It has been hard for me, sure I have constant friends and family around me, I still go to bed alone at night. and watch our programs on t.v., the same ones we'd talk passionately about, Survivor and Amazing Race, lol. silly things you miss the most huh.
You must really like Spain to have stayed there. What country are you born to?

JustSaying wrote on March 30, 2015, 5:14 PM

lol cute post, yeah, I get the same way. I'm use to it all , just another thing about me. and you. lmao

AsADrivenLeaf wrote on March 30, 2015, 6:02 PM

I'm so sorry about the death of your lifetime partner. I hope you'll be alright soon? I cry easily but I'm not diabetic. Maybe I should watch my diet, too.Love to you, JustSaying

Alexandoy wrote on March 30, 2015, 8:56 PM

This post terrifies me a bit because diabetes runs in the family and I haven’t had my blood sugar checked yet.

Hollyhocks100 wrote on March 31, 2015, 4:25 AM

I´m English and planning to go back there if my house sells here soon (I´m in the process but its taking forever)
It´s good that you have family and friends supporting you, but it doesn´t stop the ache of missing your partner, and yes it is the silly things you miss the most.