During the week, when I am in the three-day workshop cycle, I do not feel I have much time to read or write. In fact, I am rather exhausted during the process and have little energy other than to get a bite to eat and fall into bed. Unfortunately, I am not getting much rest at nights, awakening several times.
I often wonder if others are like me. I have this passion for getting the messages to my participants and give 110% of self to those who attend, regardless of their interactivity with me. I continue to try to engage them in the hopes that something will spark them to want more for themselves.
Last week's class evaluations of me were okay, but there were several, which spoke of things that were "offensive" to them, citing general examples of a type of remark (I will not put it up here). I know myself and clearly deny my capacity to make such remarks. If in the wrong hands, it could be taken completely out of context and be troublesome.
When I get people who are unhappy in class, and then I force them to think, by challenging them, I find that the reaction is to try to seek out and destroy. The comments get more vicious and ugly. It happens more and more.
When did people begin to have so little regard for others that they would stoop to any level, just to try to make life miserable for others and get them into trouble for something they do not do? This society frowns on certain behavior, so they use that simply to accuse, though they do not do so openly with their names on the evaluations.
I suppose it is human nature (of some) to act this way. But it seems as if it happening more and more.
Or maybe I am the one who needs to change. I may continue to hold unrealistic, idealistic expectations of what the world should be.
© Coral Levang, 2015
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