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Facing facts

There is something I have been avoiding for a long time and this morning I decided I needed to face it head on.

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety disorder back in March last year when I basically lost the plot and had a break down. I was adamant I did not want medication but when I couldn't get on a bus with my son without freaking out I decided enough was enough and had to try the meds. Since then I have been aware of the fact that I have been putting on weight but I have been trying to avoid the issue.

This morning I weighed myself and realised I have put on two stone and I could have wept. I worked so hard to lose weight and so to realise it is all back on hit hard. I feel fat, I look fat and I know I am fat. So what do I do? Obviously I will try and diet but do I risk stopping the medication and losing the plot again?

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JeanC wrote on February 24, 2015, 3:26 PM

NO! As someone with depression myself the last thing you want to do is stop your meds. Don't focus on the weight, focus on feeling better. Focus on doing things that make you feel physically better. Stay away from the scale. Do things like putting on upbeat music and dance while you dust the house. Moving your body in pleasurable ways is great for helping with depression and you are getting exercise at the same time. BUT PLEASE STAY ON YOUR MEDS!!!!! I've known too many people who didn't and it was not good.

GemstonePink wrote on February 24, 2015, 3:34 PM

That is a side effect at first with that type of medication, but once your body adjusts, that wears off a bit. Continue dieting.

AliCanary wrote on February 24, 2015, 3:54 PM

Don't restrict your eating too much, but start exercising. Working out gives you a natural endorphin boost--you will feel so good afterward, and you will feel proud that you are ding something to help yourself, and then, hey, you will get in better shape, too, so you will feel good because of that, too--it's really a win-win-win!

wolfgirl569 wrote on February 24, 2015, 4:54 PM

Do not stop your meds without talking to your doctor. He might be able to give you something else

MakeMoneyOnline wrote on February 24, 2015, 5:45 PM

I know you won't believe me but you're definitely not fat and you look great. But as a guy wrestling with weight myself, I understand how you feel. I literally notice every ounce of new fat on me, although other people constantly say that I'm not fat at all. Admittedly, I did lose a lot of weight during January because I was very sick and practically didn't eat anything for the whole month. But now that I'm healthy again, I literally see the pounds creeping back and I know I have to do something about it. As for depression, I don't suggest you stop the pills. I have a friend that also has a diagnosed condition and almost every year he decides that "He's cured" because he really looks and feels great, so he stops the meds... needless to say, he relapses into the "depression mode" within a month. This happens every time and it takes a toll on all of us who care for him, not just himself. I suggest you talk to your doctor and go over alternative medication or make a healthy weight loss strategy (but unfortunately I know you won't do it because it's a proven fact that nobody - unless morbidly obese - visits the doctor to discuss healthy weight loss. Perhaps you stand a chance because you have an excuse with the medication...)

Good luck in any case!

crowntower wrote on February 24, 2015, 6:36 PM

You are so pretty to think about fats,Lol! I mean it is really hard when the problem is your face... I am ugly in the standards of human, but I don't feel like one because I know I am beautiful in the sight of God. Love yourself the way it is, and things will follow. Imagine myself being bullied when I was young and until today, but because I feel pretty and I know I am pretty I am not depressed seeing myself in the mirror. I am fat too when I was in high school but I don't mind, eating right and do a lot of job makes me thin. Love yourself and never get depressed by it... and just eat right not because you are n a diet but because you love yourself and want to give the best health ever. You are pretty and sexy.

Coffee wrote on February 25, 2015, 4:32 AM

Have you been back to the doctor to discuss the weight gain? You can't just decide to come off them and risk your health, but maybe there is some advice your GP can give you?
Take care dear.

MegL wrote on February 27, 2015, 9:02 AM

Keep on with the meds unless your doctor agrees to you stopping them. There are a great many kinds of diet out there and there will be at least one that will suit your lifestyle and medications. I am currently doing try a diet for a month. I reckoned that i couldn't just pick a diet and stay on it for life, I didn't know if it would suit me. So I looked at different diets and decided to try them for a month each and find which suited me best. So far, have lost 2 inches around and 6Kg, with 2 diets. looking to see what my next one will be now.