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I Have No Bucket List

One of my favorite people that I have met through online writing sites is valmnz . I find her to be one of the most genuine people I have come across in the 17 years that I have been online in chat rooms and writing. Normally, we share many common views and interests, and I agree with her on many topics.

One writing topic that she has challenged us to take on is a "Bucket List" challenge--writing about what is on our own list of things we would like to do before we kick the bucket (die).

In May 2012, I was told that I was going to die in six months to a year, having been diagnosed with stage IV Carcinoid/Neuroendocrine Cancer. I seriously considered ending my life two weeks after I heard the doctor say those words. A bucket list was the last thing on my mind. Obviously, I am not gone yet.

Many people, upon learning of my diagnosis, started to be concerned about knowing what my bucket list was and encouraging me to do these things. No one offered to pay for my extravagant trip around the world, or taking the pilgrimage, El Camino de Santiago. Spending a summer in Sweden with friends is also costly. So is a trip south of the equator to visit Australia and New Zealand.

You see, everything that might have been on my bucket list costs many thousands of dollars, just in airfare alone. And when given only a short time, none of those things matter any more. There is no time to plan them, pay for them, and do them.

I decided that I was going to forgo the bucket list. Instead, I was going to have a "Live-it" list. Each and every day that I wake up, I am living with cancer, not dying of it.

So, my "live-it" list is very simple: Live each day doing what I feel like doing. This includes work, play, eating, working,driving...anything.

I also made a pact with myself that when things are no longer fun, I will stop giving my energy to it, which means that choices will have to be made when those moments present themselves.

Since changing my view on life and living, which I see as two different things, I have done many things that I would never have done, had I had a bucket list. In fact, some of them were so far out of my scope of what I would have ever been crazy enough to do every thought of doing.

Glass fusing. Rock climbing. Painting. Zip-lining. Obstacle course. And more.

Each of these things scared the heck out of me. Yet, when I found myself in a moment to do them, I made a choice then and there.

I have things that I would like to see and people I would love to meet around the world, should I find myself with the money to do them. One of the people will be valmnz in New Zealand.

But other than the travel wishes, I have no Bucket List. You see, I still have life to live. One day at a time.

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scheng1 wrote on February 23, 2015, 4:33 AM

I think you live beyond the expectation of your doctor because you live well, instead of having a bucket list.

crowntower wrote on February 23, 2015, 6:02 AM

that is great to know, that you got inspire by someone. And I am so thankful to God that you still have a lot of time living your life the way you want to enjoy it. Might want to add in your list to know God more and to know more people to encourage them, that even though life is so tough as long as you have the energy and time to move from one place, or having opportunity just to do things... we can still live life in the fullest co-partnership with Jesus will never get a dull days but excitement and fun, and fruitful. God bless.

Hollyhocks100 wrote on February 23, 2015, 8:39 AM

I have no bucket list either, no place I long to go, unless you call relocating back to the UK a bucket list item. I´m like you, more of a spur of the moment person.

wolfgirl569 wrote on February 23, 2015, 9:56 AM

I do not have one either, the only thing I want is for everyone I love to be happy and healthy. Oh and maybe to move somewhere warmer lol

valmnz wrote on February 23, 2015, 2:24 PM

Your story is truly inspirational and I'm humbled by your kind words. Thank you for both. You are so right, the best daily life we can live is the best dream of all. But, keep dreaming of New Zealand. 😊

Kasman wrote on February 23, 2015, 2:27 PM

One day at a time is how we should all live our lives because we never know what tomorrow will bring but we should also keep one eye on the future - because you never know what tomorrow will bring! emoticon :smile:

GemstonePink wrote on February 23, 2015, 2:50 PM

I do not have a bucket list. I just wait until things come my way and then decide if they will bring me joy. If not, not gonna do it.

Ellis wrote on February 23, 2015, 5:05 PM

My bucket list has a hole in it....dear Liza...dear Liza..

BarbRad wrote on February 23, 2015, 9:24 PM

I love your attitude. I don't have a bucket list, either. I'm too spontaneous. I am open to daily opportunities and adventures and take them as they come. I have seen more of the world than many have and live in a beautiful part of the world that I shall probably never finish exploring. I've already been blessed beyond measure and I am content with what I have. I would like to just remain free and healthy enough to enjoy it.

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CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 9:57 PM

My favorite aunt used to say about her living/dying: "I'm not good enough for the Lord, and I'm too damned mean for the devil." Perhaps, this is true for me, too. emoticon :winking:

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:05 PM

Thank you for your comment. I appreciate it. I always want to make sure I encourage people, and help them to see that there is always something to see beyond the challenges faced, whether or not they have a belief in the God of your understanding or in a higher power of their understanding. As long as I have breath, I will continue to do my best to share encouragement.

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:07 PM

Hollyhocks100 I think that it's really about having a direction, but being open to change. I travel that way, too.

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:08 PM

Ah, yes. As do I. But I also realize that their happiness and health is not something over which I have control, so I fret less. Or try to. emoticon :winking:

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:12 PM

valmnz *hugs* You truly are one of the kindest people I have ever "met." And I will continue to keep that in mind. Now, if I could just win the Powerball Lottery! emoticon :winking:

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:14 PM

Kasman Ain't that the truth!!! So, tomorrow, if you should run into a wealthy Scotsman who can handle a sassy, feisty gal like me, let me know, okay? emoticon :tongue:

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:15 PM

Sounds like we are the same!

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:16 PM

I am not sure of the reference "dear Liza"... Can you please explain?

valmnz wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:18 PM

lol, I was thinking the same today, maybe I should take a ticket this week emoticon :smile:

CoralLevang wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:18 PM

Thanks, BarbRad ... I understand the spontaneity. I just never had the money to be as spontaneous as I'd like to have been. LOL But I try to make most things an adventure.
As far as attitude... LOL I'm glad that you love it. I'm not sure that all appreciate that I give them my attitude. LOL emoticon :winking:

valmnz wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:19 PM

CoralLevang didn't you sing that song at school when you were a kid? What a shame, we loved it, look up the words online I'm sure you'll find them!

BarbRad wrote on February 23, 2015, 10:39 PM

I don't suppose any of us writing here have the money to do all we'd like to do. Otherwise, we might be spending more time doing it. I'd love to be able to take off in the car and drive with my hubby all the way to Alaska, stopping to eat wherever and spending the night in comfort anywhere it looked interesting. But that won't happen because that costs more money than we have.

cheri wrote on February 24, 2015, 1:42 AM

I tried to make a list but I am not comfortable doing them.

Ellis wrote on February 24, 2015, 9:38 AM

We must be showing our age valmnz

Squidwhisperer wrote on February 24, 2015, 11:47 PM

"unless reincarnation is in the cards.." - first thing I thought to write, but don't want you to take it wrong. I think it's quite wonderful that you're here talking about such stuff - all I can say is that I think your honesty and bravery and endurance are all we can aspire to.

CoralLevang wrote on February 24, 2015, 11:51 PM

Thanks, &Squidwhisper , however I'm not always brave. You don't hear when I'm squealing. emoticon :winking: I think I might come back as a piglet....just make sure you all enjoy the bacon. LOL BTW..."Stop Acting.." inspired.

GemOfAGirl wrote on February 25, 2015, 12:13 AM

I think you've chosen well. As long as you do the things that call to you, you will continue to choose well.

CoralLevang wrote on February 25, 2015, 1:30 AM

I'll tell you what....I'll play my $2 at the end of the week (payday). Should I win, I will visit and take you to dinner. emoticon :smile:

CoralLevang wrote on February 25, 2015, 1:31 AM

Ellis I'm not far behind any of you. LOL
valmnz I am not familiar with it that I can remember. You do know that memory is the first thing to go. ROFLMAO

valmnz wrote on February 25, 2015, 1:34 AM

Lol, I just invested $6.00 in what we call Big Wednesday emoticon :smile: I'll let you know if i win anything!

CoralLevang wrote on February 25, 2015, 1:42 AM

I was certainly not comfortable on that obstacle course, one of the obstacles being walking a 15ft tightrope, 55ft in the air.
that was only part of it. Nearly wet my pants. LOL I get it.

CoralLevang wrote on July 1, 2015, 11:25 AM

Thank you. We must all learn to listen to what calls to us. We become different people when we do, I think.