When You Love..
Sometimes " Love " can be the hardest, and the best thing and feeling that any one of us can experience. I've always been one of those people who loves 'hard' when I love. It can be my curse, or possibly my blessing?
I know I can honestly say that I've been touched by the feeling of 'love' for the past few months by someone. It was honestly the best feeling I've ever felt in my life. I never felt so wanted by someone. I never felt so cared for. I officially felt like.."I mattered'. It was such an amazing feeling!!!
Things may not all be roses and rainbows with her and I anymore. But I can honestly say, no matter what we've been through..good or bad. I still love her. And those feelings have not disappeared. I don't believe feelings just 'vanish' just like that when you truly love someone. No matter how hard the situations can be. If the love was there, it will be there..
I'm far from perfect, I've made my mistakes with her already. I've hurt her, we've hurt one another. But sometimes love can hurt. It's just how you get through it at the end of the day that matters. And if two people truly care. Any kind of obstacles or argument, won't stop the feelings...
The scariest feeling in the world, is feeling like the one you love is slipping away..that there could possibly be someone else? I have a tendency to think like that, and I don't like it..I feel it pushes her away too..I get jealous. I have my faults. But I guess I'm just scared...sometimes I feel she's too good for me. How could someone so awesome possibly love me or care this much? Plus she's SO beautiful!
I know that love exists though. She has proved to me it does.
Now to hold onto this love? That's what I'm trying....I don't give up that easily...not when I care... I'll fight for what I want , and love .
I care more than she will ever really know..I do know that. I wish I could show her my heart sometimes...and let her read my mind. So she could really know and see what I think of her.
As for my mistakes, I wish I could turn back time, and take things I said back that I didn't mean to say or do out of anger (sigh!). But none of us are gifted with that ability to do..
Maybe one day......she'll know. I love HER ! And honestly believe I always will.
Scariest thing I'm going through right now..is feeling those feelings are no longer the same anymore for me...it hurts. But life is what it is. And I want her happy...
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