The Holidays are coming!
As I wrote in my introduction post, Thanksgiving and Christmas are tied for my favorite Holiday. Mainly because I love spending time with my family, but also because I love the whole cooking dinner together thing, and talking about our lives, and all our memories from growing up. Plus for Christmas, I love seeing all the houses lit up and all the other outdoor decorations people do. And seeing how excited kids get when they get to take pictures with Santa.. It's just the best time of the year - to me anyways.
Though, Thanksgiving and Christmas are also hard times for me. Mostly because of not having my daughter here to spend them with me, but also because of all the loved ones we have lost over the last few years. Its just not the same. Especially since my cousin Anthony who passed away in 2005 would come over here every Thanksgiving and pig out on our food, after he had just been to two other houses and pigged out (he loved food). And he would hug us, and make lots of jokes.. he was my favorite cousin. So Thanksgiving is really hard around here.
And then for Christmas, my Grandfather who passed away in 2010 would come over every Christmas Eve and give us cards with money in them, that we would put sitting on the tree.. and we couldn't open them until he came over Christmas Day to see everything we got.. It was our own little tradition :( But now we have a new tradition, where we put our last cards from him on the tree every year.
I don't know.. I guess it's just hard to celebrate the way I used to. Though, that doesn't take away how happy I am to be with what little family and friends I still have, or how thankful I am for them and everything else I have.. It just makes it tougher to have a good time. You know? :-/
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Ps: We miss and love you Anthony and Grandpa, and all our other lost loved ones. xx
And we all miss and love you too Savannah! Especially mommy xx