I just feel so exhausted about things.
I feel like I am always tired. I deal with a lot of stress right now and don't have a legit outlet to burn off steam other than writing.
I sleep maybe 6 hours (of interrupted sleep) a day if I am lucky and the rest of the day I am on the go. There is my online work. There is taking care of grandma which consists of making sure she eats healthy, checking her sugar, bathing her, changing her diapers, lifting her, etc. Then there is homeschooling the children. There is cooking and cleaning, ensuring the pets are cared for, and more.
I am always doing something. Even in my sleep, I am on the go and so I wake up just as tired as if I had not slept at all. I'm not even sure what to do with myself, but I need to do something to make sure I don't have a full fledged nervous break down someday.
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Jayme_Janella wrote on November 4, 2014, 1:34 AM
why don't you try taking a break even just for a day or a few hours.. ask someone to take care of your grandma. after all, we all need a break to relax, because if not we may end up burnt out and unhappy.
MegL wrote on November 4, 2014, 1:42 AM
Get your doctor to check your thyroid activity. Sometimes people who are exhausted have low thyroid. You might also consider whether you could be depressed. It's not surprising you feel exhausted with all that you are doing. Can you get some help?
bestwriter wrote on November 4, 2014, 3:22 AM
You certainly are stressed out. That is much too much to put up with. Anyone will buckle down under this pressure. If you do not find anyone in your family to share caring for your grandmother which is a full time job may be you could shift her to a senior home. There is only so much one can handle. You also have a right to enjoy your life.
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 6:19 AM
I will not place grandma in a nursing home at all. She has dementia and wouldn't be able to answer me as to the quality of her care.
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 6:22 AM
I have a vitamin D deficiency at my last physical that was all they found. It was a recent physical. The vitamin D deficiency does cause fatigue. I have insomnia on top of the fatigue so that doesn't help.
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 6:24 AM
I used to ask my mom.for.help because she is a former home attendant, but my mom had some.sort of attack last time she helped me and now I am worried about her over exerting herself. My mom lives out of town.
bestwriter wrote on November 4, 2014, 6:39 AM
In that case you must adopt a stance of accepting everything with a smile. :)
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 7:04 AM
Oh, but that doesn't mean that I cannot vent. Writing is free therapy. :)
bestwriter wrote on November 4, 2014, 7:09 AM
Giving vent is a sure way for getting relief but what bothered me was about your fear of getting into a nervous breakdown. Accepting things with a smile will surely take you away from that thought. I wish you well.
LoudMan wrote on November 4, 2014, 7:11 AM
Well, if you gotta do it, do it while you're young.
ArshadNiazi wrote on November 4, 2014, 7:18 AM
In young people it is very common.
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 9:43 AM
I've had mini anxiety attacks before. My doctor is a sham and doesn't share my concerns. Probably thinks I just want medication or something as there are a lot of druggies in this area
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 9:44 AM
Do what while I am young? Have a nervous break down? LOL
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 9:45 AM
What is common when young? Fatigue or nervous breakdowns? I feel like I had more energy before.
ViperGirl85 wrote on November 4, 2014, 5:22 PM
I am sorry you feel this way. :( Maybe there is a way to have even 30-60 minutes of "me" time, on the weekends or something.
bestwriter wrote on November 4, 2014, 6:14 PM
It is quite expected in the situation that you are to get those attacks. But with a bit of change in thinking and getting to like what you are doing it might help you somewhat. Medicines will give you temporary relief. You have a challenge before and that is to get rid of those anxiety attacks.
sheilagamo wrote on November 4, 2014, 7:38 PM
Looks like you need some time for yourself
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 8:50 PM
I went into NYC for a quick trip and had some pizza with my mom. But sometimes spending time with her is not relaxing at all. Lol she threw a tantrum at the store because the employee kept saying excusing me and going past her and it made her feel the lady thought she was going to steal. The lady just had to move boxes out the way because she was filling up store displays :-/
acrogodess914 wrote on November 4, 2014, 8:50 PM
Yes but it is pretty much impossible to get it right now.
NeldaHoxie wrote on November 6, 2014, 10:02 AM
Found you! Here there and everywhere. I don't know how you do it. It seems that you are constantly sleep deprived. I hope if you move back to NY life could get easier.
ViperGirl85 wrote on November 6, 2014, 5:07 PM
I was referring to taking some time to yourself though, without anyone else around, even if it means locking yourself in another room for a half hour to an hour.
acrogodess914 wrote on November 6, 2014, 8:42 PM
Probably not easier. I intend to get either a full or part time job between 15-30 hours once we move, but maybe that is what I need. A change of scenery so I am not home all day?
acrogodess914 wrote on November 6, 2014, 8:43 PM
Tomorrow, I'm going grocery shopping. LOL. Woo hoo! Alone time!
ViperGirl85 wrote on November 9, 2014, 9:54 PM
At least it gives you time to just breathe.
Ruby3881 wrote on November 16, 2014, 3:10 AM
It's good that you recognize the signs of chronic fatigue. Have you got access to any sort of home care for your grandmother? I know it's probably a piddling little amount, if you qualify at all. But you might be allowed a few hours a week of respite care so you can do something for yourself :)
Ruby3881 wrote on November 16, 2014, 3:14 AM
I can completely understand why you don't want to place her in care! I've worked in a chronic care setting, and seen a lot of things that never should happen. Perhaps a day center for a few hours a week, though? From what I've heard, these facilities tend to be a good choice. Since the clients are only there for a short while, there are fewer things to worry about and much less potential for abuse.